Thin Skin

It is a sad feeling to see a kid you care about make all the wrong choices.  I know it is okay to have this sad feeling.  But is it okay to be so sad that you have to take a break from work to deal with it?

I am so tired. So very tired. So many kids came and went from the facility; some the right way and some the wrong way.  It is the ones who left the wrong way that make me so sad.  I know there's so much potential and love in them, but their years of pain hardens them.

I tried to be a good example. I tried to lead them.  I fought everyday with some of them.  I encouraged the shit out of them.  I told them they were worth something.  I told them they could do anything.  And sometimes it feels like it wasn't enough.   I could have done something differently.

I tried my best, and that it is all I can do.

Hands of Time

It is a humbling thought to know that I haven't seen most of my San Diego friends in about a month; it means that they have their own lives, and the world doesn't revolve around me.  Once I left for school, their lives went on without me.  And when I leave again, their lives will continue to go on without me.

Time is a struggle we created.  God only created the sunrise and sunset, telling us when to wake and when to sleep.  Time as we know it was made by man.  It would be interesting to know what it would be like to live in a world where we had to concept of the numerical time.

"Back up your boys, and back up your last name." - David Perez

Whirring

This post is about 2 weeks overdue, but I had to upload some pictures from San Francisco.  Spending time with some of my best friends was definitely needed.

The Mission District is full of murals

Duboce Park

The Mission

Spiderweb

Nickie

Nickie and Garrett in Ashbury Heights

Those blue dots were made with cigarettes

If these shoes could tell stories....

Randy in Golden Gate Park

"No cheesy pictures"

And I must end with this thought......

.......paranoia, uncontrollable laughter, laziness, hunger, deep thought, and all other things associated with Marijuana are really help us.  God made this plant so we can appreciate his creation, relax and not worry about the stresses in our life, trust Him when we get scared, enjoy good food, and think outside of our tiny boxes.  Its important not to abuse it however.  If we get TOO lazy, eat TOO much, and rely on it for everything then all of its good intentions get shot.

Just some food for thought