Awake My Soul

We are all just ghosts in our own world, just looking for reality.

And here is what appears to be reality.

And I pray that I do find reality.  I pray that my soul be awakened and my eyes cleared.  I pray that I will not fear what I could possibly see, only that I should be thankful that I DO see! I pray to find this life story from another perspective, that I can read all the stories that I could.  How beautiful it is to read another life, and to be there while it is being written.  

YOUR STORY IS WORTHY, so let it be read.

30th and Beech

In the ocean above us, we swim but never get wet

Am I getting warmer or just forgetting the cold?

Posted up by The Alchemy, on the bench behind this tree

This corner resembles that City of Roses

That flower I want to smell forever

And as a bus blocks the sun

A hunger strikes my belly

What I wouldn't give for a bite

Of the most delicious fruit

Just of a bite of the Big Apple

Because I would rather be full now

And smell the roses later

We Used to Wait

One night in San Diego, narrated by Arcade Fire's "We Used to Wait"

I used to write

I used to write letters

I used to sign my name

I used to sleep at night

Before the flashing lights settled deep in my brain

But by the time we met
The times had already changed
So I never wrote a letter
I never took my true heart
I never wrote it down
So when the lights cut out
I was left standing in the wilderness downtown

Now our lives are changing fast

Hope that something pure can last

It seems strange

How we used to wait for letters to arrive

But what's stranger still 

Is how something so small can keep you alive

We used to wait

We used to waste hours just walkin around

We used to wait

Ooooo we used to wait

Sometimes it never came

Ooooo we used to wait

Sometimes it never came

Ooooo we used to wait

Still moving through the pain

I'm gonna write a letter to my true love

I'm gonna sign my name

Like a patient on a table

I Wanna walk again

Gonna move through the pain

Now our lives are changing fast

We used to wait for it

Now we're screaming

Sing the Chorus again

Decision

I had finally made my decision.  It seems that the call of the East was far too seductive for me to to ignore.  New York City persistently beckons for me to come.  Her streets flowing with promise.  I am constantly thinking about life there.  I have the most amazing friends and most loving family.  So many people choose to stay close to their family, and so many others dream of having a family to move close to.  It is as if I take what I have for granted, and I am ignoring what God had blessed me with.  It is though I would be not wanting God's blessings.


Then I remembered Jesus and Moses and the Apostles.  They left for years doing what God wanted.  They had families, careers, and comfort.  God told them to get up and follow Him.  I feel that God had guided my thoughts to New York for a reason.  I wonder how he would use me. I have a heart for bot children and photography.  I know it is a combination of both.  I am excited!

Above is a grand tree in a park by my house.  It was taken January 29th, and it was in the 70's! Another reason why I will miss San Diego....and make me glad I left!

These are from the rest of the day.  Next January, I will be photographing snow!