My Life's a Movie

New York makes you feel like you're living in a movie.  You feel so cool walking down the street knowing that you are in the greatest city in the world.  While everyone else outside New York only know it by what they see on films and pictures, you are drinking, eating, and loving in this city every single day.  I AM ONE THOSE PEOPLE IN THE MOVIES!!

I've always been cool, but now I care enough to dress cool

open-mind

Is it possible to be so open-minded that you don't have opinions of your own? What happens when almost anything that everybody says makes sense and find truth in it? What's your own standard? Your own reason for waking up everyday and loving life?

I can't keep falling into this trap.  I need to find my convictions again.

above the clouds

Sometimes I feel like that I don't want to work for something.  I think that at this point of my life I just want to go out, drink, and get high.  Nothing more and nothing less.  Cool shit is fun.  And I love doing cool shit.

Next week, I'll probably be back to myself.  Until then, I'll be doin cool shit.

Beginning of 2012

A month ago I believed that 2012 would be a great year; I would start school and start my journey of being a photographer.  One week into this year and it is excruciatingly hard.  I have no money.  I have 24 dollars in my account for another 3 weeks until I get paid.  I can't pay the utility bills so I made a deal with my roommates that I do our chores for the month of January so they can pay.  It's cold.  I miss home.  My dad co-signed for my loan but he didn't make the requirements so I have to find another co-signer ASAP or else I can't go to school.

I know that God has something planned for me and it may not be SVA for now, but God what is it then? I guess I can take some beginner classes at a community college and try again for the fall, but it's so frustrating.  I thought my life would be in order but its been so difficult moving here.  I am so thankful that God is taking care of my basic needs though; I just wonder what his plan is for all this.

at least I still haven't lost my passion: